Love Happens

Today I saw a really good movie. It's not just one of those movies that make me super excited about, or makes me laugh hysterically, or just infatuates me like Edward off of Twilight does. (Yes, I'm a Twilight nerd/dork/loser or whatever other names you may want to call me because of my love for that movie.) But the movie I saw tonight was one that had a really good message. It had a really good point that made me cry because it was just so good. The movie made me think of my life and of an event which happened in my life.

The movie I'm speaking of is titled "Love Happens". It's about this man whose wife died 3 years before and he now is a huge author over a book that talks about how to cope your sadness with other things and to overcome your grief. I won't give the entire movie away just because I seriously think you should watch it for yourself. But the main gist is that he actually never got over his own tragic event because he was so consumed with trying to please everyone else.

This kind of thing happens in other people's lives today. People have a tragic event happen, and instead of actually facing reality, they try to shy away from what really happen. They think they're making themselves feel better by not worrying so much about it at first, or at least putting on the appearance of not worrying over it. But in reality, when no one is looking, they then think over the tragedy. I did this myself around this time last year. My best friend who knew everything about me died along with his mom. It was such a hard event to get through. This happened July of 2008, and everyone was asking if I was alright. And what would I say to everyone? "Oh yea! I'm perfectly okay! It's God's plan, not mine." Which now I totally believe to be true, but at the time.. that was just the phrase I used so I wouldn't actually have to face the fact that he died or have to talk to anyone about it on a serious level.

Finally this past spring I was able to truly lean on God. Last fall I was leaning on God up to a point. It's like my mind knew and accepted that God took him from me, but my heart would not dare accept it. And that was a hhuuuggeeee problem. Considering that Jesus lives in my heart, yet my heart wasn't agreeing with Jesus.. yea, that's kinda a problem. But thankfully last spring I stopped being so stubborn and I gave everything up to God and trusted Him that He knew what was best when he called my friend to His kingdom that Monday afternoon.

"Love Happens" got me thinking about this tragedy that occurred. This tragedy affected me, as well as over 100 people. But one of the actors in this movie said something along the lines of: "Son, it was never your fault. We never blamed you; we just wanted to grieve with you. Accidents happen, and having a family along to be by your side is the only thing that can ease the pain." This is so true. My family and close friends helped me so much with this tragedy, but one thing the movie did leave out, is that your family will never, ever ease the pain you go through like our Lord can. God is THE only One who will ever fully understand everything that happens in your life. When I finally recognized this last spring was when I was able to easily think of my best friend dying, and seeing how I can use that for Christ. It made Heaven real to me, so much more real than it ever has been, because I know my best friend and mom are there--they will never face death again, and knowing that I won't ever face death either and will be with God forever once I'm in heaven excites me so much! So this movie brought up alot of old feelings and emotions, but it also brought back my thankfulness I have toward my Jesus. I'm so unbelievably thankful for a God who truly cares and who never wants to see us hurting, but wants us seeking after Him instead.

"He will wipe away every tear from their eyes. Death will exist no longer; greif, crying, and pain will exist no longer, because the previous things have passed away." Revelation 21:4