Gots some excitement in my bodayyyy (:

Holy....it's been a full 27 days since i've last blogged. Man, that's insane. I feel horrible about it because blogging keeps me in line and accountable. I need this back in my life again!

Anyways, I've been wondering lately about what makes people excited. For some it's seeing friends, boyfriends, girlfriends, family, or just any person in general. For some it's going to a concert to see their favorite band. For some it's seeing their favorite sports team win an intense game. And for some, it's witnessing someone accept Christ, hear about Christ, tell someone about Christ, read something about Christ, or just anything that has to do with Jesus Christ!

All of these things excite me. I like to be an exciting/excited person. The smallest things, like a new simple Sharpie marker, can make me excited. I've been counting down to seeing a guy who is currently in my life. I'm excited to see my dad when he gets back from his travels on Monday. I just saw that Michael Buble is going to be at the RBC center in July, and i'm already excited about going, yet i havent even bought tickets yet! Sports teams.... yea, go Heels! And Jesus Christ..... goodness, just hearing His name (when used correctly) gets me very excited!

As most people know, I have started at my new school now. I started this past Tuesday, and love it! The first day i didnt meet a wholeeee lot of people, I was so overwhelmed with the drastic change that i couldn't focus much on making new friends. But something i did have in the very front of my mind, was wanting to tell EVERYONE about Jesus. And by the end of the week i was able to talk about either church, my old school (which was Christian), or Jesus Himself with i believe 9 new people. One girl was able to read my whole testimony! (I wrote it out as a personal narrative for an english assignment and she read it.) And this totally excites me!!

I'm excited that i've already had at least a few opportunities to mention something about one of those 3 topics with new people. I mean, this is the reason for me going to this school. So seeing it already happening, gosh, it's awesome.

But the past week or so, as i've began to think of the excitement of people, I realized how easily i am excited about certain things and will express my excitement to where everyone knows how extremely excited i am, but when it comes to Christ i don't think i show my excitement nearly as much as i should. On here (my blog), i could talk about it forever. But in person i'll be like "oh Jesus makes me sooo excited!" but then i'll change the subject or someone else will. but if it's something about counting down to getting to see someone... i tell EVERYBODY! and even do like a little happy dance thing. So, i ask myself.. why do i get sooo excited about things that are absolutely nothing compared to my God? Honestly, i don't really know. That's how alot of people are. They get excited about Christ, but get more excited about something else.. or so it seems. I pray i can work on this. I pray that no matter what, I will always be excited to share Christ with someone who needs to hear it. If i'm consistently excited, then i'll alwayssss be talking about it. Don't get me wrong, Christ gets me farrr more excited than everything, i'm just saying that i dont show it nearly as much as i should. I mean, when someone's favorite football team wins the superbowl, they celebrate like crazy! but then they go to church and sit all quiet and don't seem excited at all. this seriously needs to be fixed and prioritized.

Just something to think on for now....

#1 priority:: glorify my Father.

Goodness gracious, its been forever since i last wrote. i have missed writing. no joke. writing on here keeps me in line with things. helps me see what my priorities are. and right now, my #1 priority is my urgency to share the gospel with lost people i have met recently and who i will meet in the future.

I'm going to Wake Forest-Rolesville High in a few short weeks, and to be honest, i am very excited about this. Yea, the school is much bigger, a lot of my closest friends go there, and it's right near my house. there's three exciting reasons for going there, but it's not my main reason. i've mentioned before, i believe, that i am going there so i can try and make an impact for my Jesus and my God. i'm going there to share the GREAT news the gospel has. i'm going there to share the love of Jesus. i'm going there to bring honor and glory to my Savior.

Recently, i have been getting a tad bit nervous about going to WFR. i'm not nervous about classes or making friends. i can be a smart, studious student when i actually want to be and try, and making friends is really easy for me. i like talking to people i dont know, so im excited about making new friends actually. but what i am worried about is my courage to boldly tell people about Christ. that's my #1 reason for going to this school, and i want to glorify my Lord as much as i can. this can be easy sometimes, and this can be hard at others.

i was talking to my dad today about going to this new school. i was telling him about my excitement i have for going there and how i'm honestly excited to be rejected by people because of my faith. my relationship with the Lord thrives on persecution. and this is what my dad and i were talking about. he was telling me how it will come to a point where i will be exhausted spiritually from rejection, but i'm okay with that. being a Christian in today's society isn't always just simple and easy. it hardly ever is, actually. but i'm okay with this. if a Christian honestly thinks that the safest place to be is in the center of God's will, then they're absolutely crazy. Being in the center of His will can get you killed. now, i'm not saying that the day i start at wfr and tell one person about Christ, i'm gona die. i mean, it can happen, but most likely it wont. but i am saying that it's going to be hard, but i'm preparing for that.

tonight i was talking to a new friend about Christ. he told me he believed that there is one God who created everything, but he doesnt quite believe or understand that Christ truly is our Savior. he said he doesnt even really believe in a heaven and a hell anymore. tonight, i just listened to him and listened to his view of things. i wasn't trying to be pushy by any means. just listened. he then honestly told me that he just doesnt know some answers. which is okay. i dont even know every answer. no one does but God, but i didnt hear him out then tell him what's right and what's wrong. and he thanked me for that. he told me that he was glad that i just listened to him and didnt start an argument. i honestly cannot stand it when christians witness (or try to witness) to someone, and dont even hear out their side of things. they just jump to conclusions and start telling the unbeliever their side. this sometimes works, but it can also turn alot of people away.

say that tonight when i was talking to this friend, i let him only say a few things, then the very first time he said he didnt believe Christ is the true Savior i jumped in and just started preaching at him. honestly, if i had done that, i know he wouldnt have listened to me anymore. but i didnt do that. i didnt even give my whole view tonight, but i did invite him to my church. i'm trying to build a friendship with him. but i'm going to continue to pray for him for sure. he even asked me that maybe me him and another friend of ours can hang out and talk about it sometime. i cant wait to see how the Lord uses myself and other people in his life.

this is just one person that i've talked to in the last 4 hours about the Lord. and i'm pretty sure i'm going to be thriving on this excitement for a while now. which is what i'm looking forward to at wfr. yea, i'm nervous about making a mistake. and i know i will make quite a few mistakes. nobody's perfect. so i'm not going to tell myself that i'm even close to perfection. but i am going to try to be more like Christ. whether someone listens to what i have to say, or someone cusses me out and tells me how stupid i am for believing in this. either way, i'm here on earth to glorify my Father. and that's exactly what i'm going to try to do. and i cant wait to have more conversations with friends from wfr that may be similar to the one me and my friend had tonight.

God is so good. i can't wait to see what He has in store for me. (: